I'm flying the above flags now for a very important reason.
(This may be a little long winded, but believe me this is the abridged version..)

I have.. a confession to make, one that is long overdue..
Some of you are probably going to be like "oh yeah I already knew", but a lot of you likely aren't..

I've been rolling this around in my head for the last two pride months..
Even longer feeling.. ashamed for hiding in plain sight while others don't..


You see.. I'm trans*...

I added an asterisk because it's a bit more complicated than that.
But the bottom line is, I'm not cis.. at all.

Due to the ignorance or negligence of the doctors when I was born.
My mother gave me a masculine name, and I was raised and socialized as a boy..
I never had a boys personality.. frankly I'm not sure I had a girls personality, when I was little I had no distinct gender identity..
I played with boys toys because that's what I was given, but I was just as interested in girls toys when they were around.. In fact I tended to relate more to girls when they were around..

Once puberty kicked in (late, I might add).. That's when the interesting stuff happened..
I never had an interest in things teen boys were doing, I didn't behave like they did.
If anything I consistently behaved more like a girl of that age, even if I still didn't have a defined gender identity.. the writing was on the wall.

But most interestingly, my physical development differed.. significantly..
My body had a decidedly feminine shape and features for the most part.. Despite being annoyingly tall.

It wasn't until early adulthood, and a breast cancer scare, that I discovered I did indeed.. have breasts.. A fact that became more evident as I lost a significant amount of weight.
My hormone levels were discovered to be, shall we say.. atypical.
The capacity for me to ever have children was also effectively non-existent..

I'm hesitant to identify as intersexed.. I was never officially effectively diagnosed as that medically..
And I'd rather not steal the thunder of confirmed intersexed people if that's not what I am..
My medical history is complicated, simply put I was somewhere.. in between.
A limbo between the biological sexes.. One way or the other.

After this my personality and view of myself began to shift.. First identifying as genderless, then finally realizing I was very much female...

With that my social transition began, which.. being a gender undefined blob my whole life wasn't that hard.. I started unlearning all the habits of "don't do this.. girls do that..", which were acquired from society and certain people in my life..
I started embracing my natural feminine behaviors and mannerisms..

What I didn't do.. Was acknowledge it publicly.. In fact I went out of my way to bury or destroy any traces of my previous identity online.. I crafted an elaborate fiction of being nothing more than an average cis woman online..

When I started this journey, the internet was... very different.. I was afraid to expose myself.
The one connection I had to the trans community back then was someone I'd... frankly rather forget..
So my secret remained within a VERY small circle of my closest friends I still retained contact with.
And for that I apologize..

I started making physical changes to myself.. gradually.. For a long while I tried to get by on that..

Then a little over two years ago I began medical intervention in the form of HRT.
Shifting my hormone balance from bizarrely neutral, to distinctly one side.. female..
The changes have been rather significant and surprisingly rapid..
There was more room than I expected for my body to change..

Shortly after this I legally changed my name and gender markers on my identification..

This also happened not too long after suffering the worst trauma in my life.. Losing my mother..
Who I was died with her.. Who I am now grew into place with a 100% normal female hormone balance running the show.. I'm nolonger angry or have a temper, I'm infinitely softer.. Gentle.. If anything my personality has become like my mothers.. Much like her I've become a big crybaby..

You've likely noticed a distinct change in my art style and subject matter I draw over the last couple of years..

The changes to my OC, including a considerably smaller bust.. One more like what I actually have, you'd be surprised just how much like me physically she is now..
The fact that I rather abruptly took on the name Luna in online spaces..
It's all part of my more recent changes and self-discovery..

I identify as trans, because of the undeniable fact I have medically transitioned from being stuck as something in between, to fully medically being a woman..

The woman I've always been inside since I was old enough and thinking clearly enough to understand what that even meant..
I love who I am now, while I used to hate everything about myself.
I'm PROUD of the woman I am now..


A few years ago I used the non-binary flag as a way to acknowledge the issue of gender, without giving myself away.. That was a mistake, one I have now corrected.


The other two flags.. Are a considerably simpler matter.

I'm sapphic, this is hardly news to anyone.. I'm not 'strictly' a lesbian, I am capable of being attracted to men, it's happened.. However I have extremely.. picky.. criteria when it comes to men.. as where I just.. like, women.. with few restrictions..

I've also realized that I'm demisexual.. Even if someone meets my criteria for attraction, it'll never go beyond "oh, they're kinda cute.." without a significant emotional connection..


So.. Yeah, that's my story.. I apologize if I've hurt anyone close to me by not revealing much of this.. It's been a closely guarded secret only known to a VERY small few whom I had known at a very specific point in my life..